It's been a long time since I last posted. I think it's becoming a habit, my blog is my hiding place..The place where I pour my heart out, when I'm feeling down.

We had our first argument today I guess. I don't think it's my problem this time. Since the beginning, all of the minor disagreements are pointed towards me. Some are my fault, yes. But other times, it's you being over-sensitive.

You have your principles, I have mine..Sometimes being the one who is always at fault is tiring. Being someone who is somehow quite egoistic, do you know how hard it is to always being the one apologizing and begging for forgiveness? I've made some sacrifices, do you know that I have never ever truly have to apologize to someone like the times I had with you? And yet, you've said that I am not being tolerable.

Today, he told me that he has accepted the job as an event planner for Johorean. After 2 or 3 weeks he accepted it. He said he has given me hints, what else do I want?? What I want is trust. Your principles only include yourself, have you ever thought of how I would feel? This is the first time I feel my heart throbbing with pain after 6/7 years? What I felt was disregarded as not being thoughtful! Disappointment..we both felt it this time. This is the 3rd time you have made me cry since we got together..I hope this won't become a habit..else I would be reluctant to let myself get deeper and start building a wall around once again.

I don't like feeling down at all, please promise me that this isn't starting to become a habit... :(