每次都是我妥协…让我一次真的有那么难吗…？
为了你，我已经收敛了我的倔强…以前的我，从来很少跟人家道歉。
为了你，我已经放下我最注重的尊严、面子……你还想要我怎样？
收起了我的倔强，剩下的是脆弱的自己…
我在你面前已经毫无保留的撕开自己的围墙，从以前到现在的我，很少认输、好胜。
和你在一起后，我放下我的好胜，放下我的骄傲。
为什么你就感受不到？
可能你不知道，我最害怕最讨厌的，就是冷战…
我宁愿大吵大闹，也不想无不理睬；
就一次，当我野蛮、任性、不讲理都好…让一让我，哄一哄我…有那么难吗？
你说我的举动让你感到失望，而我又何尝不是？
每次都是你不理我，我也会累的…
一整天了，一封简讯都没有…
难道就只有你可以保留你的倔强、你的坚持和你的诚信吗？
你可能永远都不会发觉这里，现在的我，是多么希望你看得到，感受得到…
等了一整天，从充满期待到现在的心情……你又可否知道？
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
It's been a long time since I last posted. I think it's becoming a habit, my blog is my hiding place..The place where I pour my heart out, when I'm feeling down.
We had our first argument today I guess. I don't think it's my problem this time. Since the beginning, all of the minor disagreements are pointed towards me. Some are my fault, yes. But other times, it's you being over-sensitive.
You have your principles, I have mine..Sometimes being the one who is always at fault is tiring. Being someone who is somehow quite egoistic, do you know how hard it is to always being the one apologizing and begging for forgiveness? I've made some sacrifices, do you know that I have never ever truly have to apologize to someone like the times I had with you? And yet, you've said that I am not being tolerable.
Today, he told me that he has accepted the job as an event planner for Johorean. After 2 or 3 weeks he accepted it. He said he has given me hints, what else do I want?? What I want is trust. Your principles only include yourself, have you ever thought of how I would feel? This is the first time I feel my heart throbbing with pain after 6/7 years? What I felt was disregarded as not being thoughtful! Disappointment..we both felt it this time. This is the 3rd time you have made me cry since we got together..I hope this won't become a habit..else I would be reluctant to let myself get deeper and start building a wall around once again.
I don't like feeling down at all, please promise me that this isn't starting to become a habit... :(
We had our first argument today I guess. I don't think it's my problem this time. Since the beginning, all of the minor disagreements are pointed towards me. Some are my fault, yes. But other times, it's you being over-sensitive.
You have your principles, I have mine..Sometimes being the one who is always at fault is tiring. Being someone who is somehow quite egoistic, do you know how hard it is to always being the one apologizing and begging for forgiveness? I've made some sacrifices, do you know that I have never ever truly have to apologize to someone like the times I had with you? And yet, you've said that I am not being tolerable.
Today, he told me that he has accepted the job as an event planner for Johorean. After 2 or 3 weeks he accepted it. He said he has given me hints, what else do I want?? What I want is trust. Your principles only include yourself, have you ever thought of how I would feel? This is the first time I feel my heart throbbing with pain after 6/7 years? What I felt was disregarded as not being thoughtful! Disappointment..we both felt it this time. This is the 3rd time you have made me cry since we got together..I hope this won't become a habit..else I would be reluctant to let myself get deeper and start building a wall around once again.
I don't like feeling down at all, please promise me that this isn't starting to become a habit... :(
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